True VALUE and WORTH

I actually sat and read my bloPs from the beginning of my bloPPing days. WOW! I can clearly see my progressions, regressions ~ my journey through my own healing process... the twists and turns as I tried desperately to get away from certain "situations" and "individuals". I think I will print my bloPs and send it to my agent ~ perhaps publish it in a book.

The "portrait" is complete. I see it all so clearly now. I made a significant "shift" back in February... reading it again reminded me of how strong I truly am... it reinforced my desire for a "higher plane"... this past year has been really hard (in many ways)... yet, I grew SO much (spiritually, mentally, emotionally).

I handed my VALUE and WORTH to people who assigned NO VALUE and WORTH to me. Yet, from all that I experienced, I was forced on a journey of pain, sorrow, and solitude... Rising UP out of the ashes of charred relationships, burnt trust, blackened deceit... I found STRENGTH, HOPE AND LOVE. I learned that which I wouldn't have learned had I not been exposed to the harsh reality of rejection, anger, lies, manipulation... simply stated ~ mean.

"They" gave me a gift far MORE valuable than gold or silver ~ more precious than any relationship or friendship... They gave me:

Me
My Strength
A deeper "knowing" of who I am
A Faith rooted in LOVE and HOPE
A clear understanding of my VALUE and WORTH

So, I am able to see them in LOVE because ultimately I have gratitude for them ~ as they taught ME what LOVE really is, by showing me what it isn't. They taught me what TRUST is, by being untrustworthy. They taught me what GRACE is, by giving me the opportunity to extend it to them. They taught me what FORGIVENESS is, by giving me so much to forgive. I am THANKFUL for the things they taught me.

I am no longer afraid of rejection (because I experienced it at such a deep level AND I survived)

I am no longer afraid of my GREATNESS (because I know what I am capable of and that is showing up in my life today).

I am no longer afraid to speak the TRUTH (because I have seen the destruction of deceit and I can discern the TRUTH from a LIE).

I will never hand somebody my value and worth again... especially if they assign no value and worth to me.

I will never allow anyone to devalue me or disrespect me or take my worth from me.

I wrote some good stuff... in my bloPs. I will go back and cut and paste some of the most profound posts...